WonderLust

Emerge

2012-02-06T04:48:00.000-08:00

Boy. Despite best efforts to keep you small you're more than half-way to adulthood. You no longer fall for the "take care of mommy" trick to have you to hold my hand in parking lots. Middle school's around the corner, the thought of which makes me ache. You arrived eleven years ago today and the world became a little brighter.

You're a sports-crazed, candy-loving, upbeat, guitar player. Although you're on the run in perpetual motion, I know just where to find you. Open hearted, beneath a golden mop. Happy Birthday, sweet guy.

Hit & Run

2012-01-25T16:15:00.000-08:00

Good & Plenty fact: the pink candy shell is derived from the crushed bodies of the female cochineal insect.

Fixation

2012-01-17T05:54:00.000-08:00

Be Nine

2012-01-08T08:30:00.000-08:00

Last night he raised a cold glass of root beer and exclaimed, "Happy birthday to me!"

Catch

2012-01-03T17:59:00.000-08:00

@75

2011-12-13T14:22:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday to my ever-glamorous mother, beautiful inside and out.

(dis)connect

2011-12-03T09:45:00.000-08:00

Everybody's doing it. I'm guilty, too. The offense is constant connection. There's barely a moment when we aren't preoccupied by a digital device. The phone. The computer. The camera. Repeat. I'm struggling to be present – no matter the locale.

Time to recharge. Must find power source now!

It's no wonder my children are doing the same. Despite concern about the future of human relations I'm still here wanting you to know me. I'm staring into a screen, aglow. Alone.

Lost and Found: Orchard Beach

2011-11-07T13:37:00.000-08:00

I take a trip with a friend, meet him halfway on a damp Fall day. A photo safari in the Bronx, October 2011.

Orange Crush

2011-10-21T13:00:00.000-07:00

Tender

2011-10-12T18:29:00.000-07:00

Two of my favorite people. I think of them everyday.

Clip

2011-09-21T06:31:00.000-07:00

Do Not Disturb

2011-09-12T10:07:00.000-07:00

Bubble Luscious

2011-09-02T07:52:00.000-07:00

Summertime is my season. Life in a bubble of warmth and green.

Shooting Gallery

2011-08-19T11:17:00.000-07:00

Soiled clothes, wilted grass blades and a large moth (dead and hairy). While I toiled in mountains of camper crud my boys busied themselves on our front step. Cap shots and powder hung in the air, a welcome disruption to the summer's idyll.

Kidmarks

2011-08-06T08:29:00.000-07:00

Imprints of a summer marked by mishaps and run-ins.

Son Day

2011-07-26T10:46:00.000-07:00

We send our kids away for weeks – only to drink them in for a day.

About A Curl

2011-07-16T04:40:00.000-07:00

Drenched, late afternoon.

Red Glare

2011-07-04T09:50:00.000-07:00

Explosive sky over the golf green. Happy Independence Day to all.

Drift Away

2011-06-29T05:06:00.000-07:00

Some wore nervous smiles, others held tightly to Pillow Pets. Ours climbed aboard without hesitation, dutifully looking back. This summer experience has been a full year in the making, the buildup intense. We searched for his wave through darkened glass. The bus cruised out of sight, setting us adrift in its wake of fumes.

Voyeuristically Yours

2011-06-14T16:35:00.000-07:00

I'd be lying if I said I didn't dig the access. If you invite me into your life I'll surely accept. Photographing on the sly doesn't work for me and the camera's my all-access pass. I love to peek. There's only one catch – I need you to know I'm there, taking you in.

With thanks and love to my friend Robin Gottlieb.

Fence Me In

2011-06-02T04:29:00.000-07:00

Happy then, happy still. Viva sweet love with you.

I'm His

2011-05-22T17:46:00.000-07:00

He doesn't need me, until he does. He follows his own Sports Center, electronic devices and chewing gum agenda. Behind the scenes I gather and plan. If I'm lucky there will be a body press from Boyland. Maybe even a word or two. I'm waiting, at-the-ready.

Roadside Attraction

2011-05-02T16:57:00.000-07:00

I've been known to veer unexpectedly. Following the heart is a perilous way in which to operate a moving vehicle. Zig! Zag! Swerve! It's the only way I care to drive – my route uncharted. Use caution if you follow close behind. I hit the brakes hard, for love.

Gimme

2011-04-25T15:07:00.000-07:00

Blue glitter on my tongue. Yum.

Short-term Parking

2011-04-17T09:20:00.000-07:00

Waiting on higher ground for flood waters to recede, 9:21 AM.

Auto Focus

2011-04-15T08:58:00.000-07:00

Most days I have no idea what I am doing from minute to minute. I'm packing lunch bags, I stop to sort mail but not read it because I'm detangling my son's hair, which reminds me I've yet to send that invoice. Then I'm out the door heading to the next fill-in-the-blank. I can't concentrate.

Late one afternoon I made this image while on the phone with a friend. We were discussing the over-abundance of photography related information available. Take the feed on my Twitter page; I click on link after link, going nowhere. Follow and be followed, maybe.

While talking, I pass though my bathroom. Light spills into the shower. I stand in the tub, phone to my ear, camera to my eye. Focus. The room feels airless, the instant is suspended. I hang up. Onto more worldly matters.

Hands Down

2011-04-08T13:59:00.000-07:00

Protective, formidable, steadfast, true. Just like him.

Carte Rouge

2011-04-01T15:21:00.000-07:00

I was consumed with doubt when I found my escape at the back of a strip mall. I got my fix.

Stinging from my third rejection in recent weeks I question the desire to promote my work. It's a big job, one that requires thought and focus and deadlines. Art making is intuitive for me in a way that promotion is not. Finding a balance between the two is difficult but necessary. One should not exist without the other.

What is my goal as I ride the production/promotion merry-go-round? Is the art for you, for me or for them? The answer must be D. All of the Above. My photographs will find the right people when the time is right.

What choice do I have but to be an artist. I see the world in a way that colors all that I do.

Ladyfingers

2011-03-25T08:35:00.000-07:00

Turns out that the Ladyfinger is a complicated cookie. In order to do the job right you will need more flour than most sponge cakes and the yolks and whites have to be handled separately. A mixer, sifter, parchment paper, pencil and ruler are also important. If the Ladyfingers cool too fast they will stick to the parchment paper and even worse, will stale quickly unless soaked in liquid. So are they worth the effort? I don't know. Ask the Tiramisu.

Actual fingers are more interesting than baked goods and I look closely at the hands I encounter. Hands seem to carry their own personal narrative, their stories can't be concealed with a little powder and blush. A disembodied hand caught my eye recently as I flashed back to my youth spent watching The Addams Family on T.V. Perhaps it's just a Bling Thing.

Green Street

2011-03-17T16:48:00.000-07:00

St. Patrick's Day, New York City.

Ready Steady Go

2011-03-16T11:19:00.000-07:00

I'm pleased to announce that after weeks spent fussing endlessly over details I now have a website showcasing my photography at www.andischreiber.com. A big shout out of thanks and love to Kenny Schneider, Meryl Levin, Jonathan Elderfield and Bonnie Emanuel. They're my favorite bunch of hardasses and I so appreciate their killer edits and brutal honesty.

Please visit the site, leave comments and freely share it with everyone you know. I'm truly grateful for your support.

Spring Flower

2011-03-14T17:16:00.000-07:00

Lifelong Mets fan, Port St. Lucie, Florida.

Edit. Sequence. Build. Repeat.

2011-03-08T04:43:00.000-08:00

Website under construction. Coming soon to a browser window near you.

Stop Dead

2011-03-04T08:54:00.000-08:00

The days pass slowly. I look up, down. A stopped clock, ice-bound debris - - caught in Winter's perpetual chill.

Fun House

2011-02-20T10:16:00.000-08:00

Nothing's more fun than a house full of music and friends, food and drink. A remnant found under the bed and we're still grooving on Cee Lo - - clean and explicit. Forget you! Not a chance.

Candy-gram

2011-02-14T17:30:00.000-08:00

More fun than a box of chocolates. Happy Valentine's Day, with love.

Perfectly Ten

2011-02-06T05:41:00.000-08:00

I celebrate you every day my sweet boy, but this day is different. Today begins a new decade. This is just a snapshot of who you are at this moment.

While you have always been an old soul, your understanding reaches far beyond your years and mine. You are thoughtful and ask the most insightful questions. I'm in awe of your determination and wonder how you became so brave. You are proud to have amassed more than 1000 baseball cards! You are relentless in pursuit of what you want - - often more baseball cards.

I love hearing you play my favorite U2 songs on guitar. Is it just me, or are you always in motion? Although sometimes you are hurried, I thank you for being patient with me as I continue to learn how to be your parent.

My whole being adores your every freckle and the mop of hair that hides your green eyes. But more than that, I treasure the beauty inside your heart.

May you know happiness and continue to shine, my sweet boy. I wish you a lifetime of double-digit birthdays.

So tighten your belt and throw your hands up. Feel the hard wind against your face and scream with joy. If your first decade is any indication, the next ten years are sure to be a wild ride.

Twist

2011-01-28T12:16:00.000-08:00

There are few things I can look at endlessly, photorealistic paintings and street photography. Both depict the everyday, weaving the strange and the familiar. Their details so sumptuous I find myself lost.

Not My Daughter's Ponytail

2011-01-18T11:43:00.000-08:00

According to my friend Jonathan, it's okay to photograph the same subject repeatedly. So I admit to being hair obsessed. I admire it all - - furry arms and fluffy chests, a rough beard and fuzzy shaved head.

I am deeply enamored with my son's mop. He forever twirls his hair, and I want to touch it too, as much as he. I hold back when he's among friends but I used to pet his head anytime. Now that I am grown up, I am more restrained.

Eight The Great

2011-01-08T05:38:00.000-08:00

Today, my little not-so-little guy is eight. He is strong when I am weak. Tender when I am difficult. How lucky I am to receive his boundless affection. He easily picks me up in a swimming pool and beats me in a race to the bottom. With one hug he can knock me off my feet. He is literally from the Specifc Ocean, breaking down big ideas to essentials. And just last night I found him curled up in my bed watching... wait for it... Blue's Clues.

Recurring Theme

2011-01-07T15:39:00.000-08:00

We saw things differently, like we have so many times before. One of us went to a dark place. I became invisible. As history does, it will recur.

While I do believe that the only constant in the universe is change, some things never will.

Shelter

2010-12-26T04:53:00.000-08:00

Rarely do I pay attention to weather reports though this one is hard to ignore. Twelve inches are expected to fall before I find my way home. Seeking refuge for my estranged heart, I know where I belong.

Watch This Space

2010-12-14T17:19:00.000-08:00

With best intentions, I go back for more. The sun will be shining, the days full, the towels plush. It makes no difference. I long for my life, in color.

Untitled, poolside

2010-12-05T12:29:00.000-08:00

I will answer the question. I need to know what my work is about.

Sequestered in Florida I spent hours cutting and glue-sticking small, black and white copies of my images onto blank notebook pages. I am creating a visual reflections notebook, an exercise I read about in “Art Without Compromise,” by Wendy Richmond.

The time seems right for me to formulate a cohesive statement.

Old and new photographs are now paired, tripled and quadrupled with one another. When grouped this way they share similar points of view, composition, subject matter and/or feeling. Some of the juxtapositions are random, telling unexpected stories. I'm adding words as well as quotes, song lyrics, articles, and works by the artists I admire. It’s daunting to view my work next to a photograph by Marc Cohen or a painting of window cakes by Wayne Thiebaud. I included a favorite poem by ee cummings that knocks me out. I wonder if I will ever have a photograph that can truly accompany it on a page.

I’m hopeful that as the notebook fills it will speak to me about my images with clarity and a sense of purpose. Until that bolt of lightening strikes - even while in captivity - I see with my heart.

Risk Taking

2010-11-12T18:09:00.000-08:00

The preceding weeks were filled with questions about my body that no one could answer. I was not yet myself. Somehow I made it through the evening unharmed. The images found me while I was consumed with my precarious physical state. I was restored in the moment, camera ready.

The party was spectacular.

Boy, Injected

2010-10-31T06:41:00.000-07:00

He was unfazed. My heart raced. We wont know if he is receiving the drug or the placebo until the study ends. He didn't want to regret not trying. Now we spend time in Clinical Research. This boy dreams of baseball and is driven by hope. I wonder how he does not feel like a pincushion.

Happy Potatoes

2010-10-22T07:52:00.000-07:00

Happy potatoes.
I'm chasing optimism
on a greasy pan.

A special shout out to editrix and poet extraordinaire, Bonnie Emanuel. http://www.bonniejillemanuel.blogspot.com/

Making Process

2010-10-15T09:10:00.000-07:00

I have had some unplanned downtime to think about the meaning of my photographs. I wonder if being process oriented keeps me from knowing what my work is about. My images speak to me but often in disparate ways without a common thread. The connection they share is they are mine and I make them happen. They are fragments of my small world. This much I know.

My process as an artist is intentionally haphazard. I believe that randomness keeps my image-making fresh. I do not take my camera everywhere I go but pick it up when compelled. When I was worked as a newspaper photographer I sought stories to tell. But now, working for myself and creating images for their own sake is more complicated - - especially when asked what it is that I photograph. My response is "anything and everything." Ambiguous. Yet I can't find a better answer.

I stumble upon inspiration, finding it tangled in a thick hedge. A "Whoozit" catches my eye as I walk through my neighborhood. How did it land there and had anyone noticed it astray? My guess is that it was swiftly replaced with a new, cleaner version. The child who lost it probably never knew it disappeared.

There is something about this process that grabs, holds and propels me forward. The photographs become markers and I drift in between them. While I continue to ponder the larger meaning of my work one thing is beyond question, uncertainty is key.

Frame of Mine

2010-10-04T14:36:00.000-07:00

One week ago I was strong, confident. Since then I have been mostly housebound, struggling through a relentless back pain. I'm humbled by my fragile body.

My son breaks into this frame of mine, stealing my self-pitying thunder. I soften. Things may not be as bad as they appear.

Skin Feeling

2010-09-20T17:27:00.000-07:00

My baby. At seven he still enjoys long baths. Plastic toys float about the tub. He can remain immersed for hours. Water rolls over his skin, sometimes his tongue. Pure sensory delight.

At seven he still allows me to hold him close. Drunk on his flesh, I am grateful beyond words.

Round Trip

2010-09-06T12:55:00.000-07:00

The sun ever-sparkles and the season never fades. Still dreaming of California - - I see a final sip, dried foliage, an emptied hotel room.

Where I live the seasons noticeably shift as we cycle along in tandem. Things end only to begin anew.

Two Peter Pans

2010-08-19T14:49:00.000-07:00

In my last post I claimed a disinterest in associating nostalgia with objects. This does not hold true for me when it comes to photographs.

I discovered a younger version of our family recently when going through an old photo album. I paused at a Polaroid of my son in preschool holding three teddy bears. I was reminded of a time when he openly expressed affection for stuffed animals and didn't want to leave my side.

The stuffed animals are piled in a corner now, starved for attention. I know their pain.

Someday I will look back at this photograph and it will become a substitute for the memory - - a reminder of my boys dazed at a hot summer day's end, their two bodies at rest on my bed. A wistful trip to Neverland when I was Tinker Bell, sprinkling digital ephemera for fairy dust.

Let Go

2010-08-11T11:57:00.000-07:00

My footwear prevented me from walking much beyond the deck of my cousins' yard. Although they do not live deep in the woods my cousins hunt and gather. They have spent years combing through yard sales and flea markets happening upon the perfect metal serving tray or antique board game. They have been trying to pare down to sell their home. No one wants to buy a house with the personal effects included, so the majority will be have to be jettisoned or placed into storage, I suppose.

Objects can have symbolic and sometimes sacred value. Through them, we long affectionately for the remote places we once occupied. Many people find comfort in objects for this reason, but I do not. So I clean and clear, getting rid of things that lack resonance and cause me distraction. I do not wish to be held hostage emotionally by nostalgia. I choose grit over sentimentality. I let go.

Yellow Greens of Summer

2010-07-27T20:14:00.000-07:00

We sit on lawn chairs by the pool, eating too many chips and calling it lunch. Hooked up to the AM radio, my son tunes in and tunes out all at once. Although Kodak no longer manufactures it's famed KODACHROME transparency film I keep singing that song, ever hopeful. The grass turns yellow underfoot. I am waiting, still.

Fast Forward

2010-07-15T19:32:00.000-07:00

Gone are the long afternoons spent floating on my back in my parent's pool. I would gaze up at the blue sky til it turned silver. This summer has yet to slow down. While my boys are enjoying it all I can't seem to refill their water bottles fast enough. I am breathing, barely.

The issue is that this summer is all about next summer. My oldest son is ready for a change. I investigate sleep-away camps in an effort to find the right place for him. I make phone calls, my stomach turns, I hold back tears.

I have seen my son leap into newness without worry. Sometimes his confidence level exceeds his abilities. But no matter, I admire his moxie. Anxiety is my business. In a dream I am fearless, flying alongside him.

Red Hot

2010-07-04T07:37:00.000-07:00

I am hot or cold, moving between passion and disinterest. Creative highs are my fireworks. In off moments I recharge through the tedium. When I stumble upon an image, I spark and everything makes sense. I am these imperfect opposites - - a flash of light, then dark.

My Men

2010-06-20T19:56:00.000-07:00

Calendar holidays. I search the card store to find my feelings expressed in someone else's words. I prefer that we honor one another on more than one prescribed day. But in the spirit of Father's Day I am taking notice of the outstanding men that uplift and challenge me. I am surrounded.

Some wish to outgrow car seats. Others are concerned about retirement savings. Many are navigating in between. The right words come easily to them. They are present. One still calls me "mama." They are artists - energetic and generous. I am in awe of them. My men look me in the eye.

I am everything with them.

Tree Porn

2010-06-12T08:09:00.000-07:00

I casually asked my gardener to get rid of a dogwood tree in our yard. Now I can't stop thinking about it.

I thought there would be more time to say goodbye but in the two hours that it took for a child's baseball game the tree was obliterated. Not even a branch remained on our curb. What a surprise when we arrived home. My son had tears in his eyes.

The dogwood had been in decline for nearly eight years, since we bought our house. With my boys needing more space it seemed like a good idea to have it uprooted. I have been visiting what remains all week, trying to make something that feels right photographically to honor a tree that gave us more shade than I knew.

Soon topsoil will be laid and seed scattered to grow grass. It will be beneath us, buried. We will kick balls and lose them in our neighbor's yard, forever. I'd like to remember the dogwood.

Cherry Bomb

2010-06-01T11:32:00.000-07:00

Don't panic. It's only the remains of an Italian Ice. No lips stitched or bones bandaged. Time for messy hands and more laundry. Warm weather is here.

Exhale. Inhale. Devour the stickiness.

Morning After

2010-05-25T09:05:00.000-07:00

He wanted to go to a neighbor's house to watch TV, but it was a school night and he was showered and in pajamas. I made him stay home. So he went out to our backyard to teach his younger brother how to pitch a hardball.

Moments later we were at a pediatric after hours clinic. I became an expert on eye trauma and the orbital bone surrounding the area. Thankfully, there was no major damage. The bloody hemorrhage will clear. He was a good sport.

The learning curve is steep for parents. We continually make choices on our children's behalf. I try to give my boys space to grow, yet sometimes I feel like their warden. On this particular evening I wanted a do-over.

Be Ok

2010-05-16T17:18:00.000-07:00

I was inspired to combine some images after seeing a triptych made recently by my friend, photographer Jonathan Elderfield. It's posted here, http://jonathanelderfieldphotoblog.blogspot.com/2010/04/triple-play.html on his photo blog. I liked that he included himself in the mix and the magical quality of his images. I tend to read images like a sentence when they are combined horizontally. My question when pairing or tripling them up - - is the sum greater than the parts? I'd love to hear your thoughts.

The pictures in my diptych were made last week, a few minutes apart. I had my camera out to mark the day and find my place in it. The afternoon light fell hard. In its shadow I was vulnerable, ambivalent. By combining these images I reframed my memory of the day and have a shifted perception. I wanted to to be okay in that moment. Looking back, I realize that I was.

A Stranger Fear

2010-05-07T06:23:00.000-07:00

I greatly admire street photographers, their courage and drive and spontaneous images. How I would love to be one - - but I am afraid do not have what it takes.

I can't bring myself to photograph strangers, candidly. I need to request permission of a subject, especially if I hope to use the image online. Most people are unwilling to be photographed and are not flattered. Paranoia.

At a local carnival I photographed a teenager. He wasn't pleased and asked me to delete the image. I politely refused. He told me that taking his picture was illegal. I reminded him that he was in public. This type of exchange always rattles me. I end up questioning my motives and then returning to quieter subjects that don't talk back, like potted plants.

I ate lunch at a waterfront park. After photographing my leftover crusts of bread I wandered looking for something new. I met a young woman. She sunbathed. I made pictures. We talked. She told me about the tattoo on her lower back for Steve, her boyfriend of seven years whom she no longer sees. I appreciated how at ease she was in her own skin. She gave me permission to use the images on my blog. Truly an amazing soul. I had hope.

Like anyone capturing moments, I am a fear-driven stranger, with a camera.

Complementary

2010-04-29T18:02:00.000-07:00

Pretty as a Pickle

2010-04-22T18:03:00.000-07:00

I have a deep love of all things green. I even find drab pickles appealing. While nothing is as simple as it appears I can appreciate that sometimes a blossom is just a blossom and a pickle was once a cucumber. It's all quite stirring.

Happy 40th Anniversary of Earth Day.

In Vein

2010-04-14T11:11:00.000-07:00

Tension. We carry it in our bodies. It is when someone grabs my hand that I realize I am holding tension there. I was surprised to see my hand looking so strained in this image.

I visited my acupuncturist in an attempt to calm my butterflies and take care. The bruise is from a needle that hit a small vessel beneath my skin. It doesn't hurt and I do feel better.

We all carry things we keep hidden. We suppress and restrain while aware they are lurking. They don't fade. Eventually, our needs surface. We have to take our lives into our own impassioned hands.

iTouch myself

2010-04-07T16:24:00.000-07:00

We were away last week over the Spring break, but not really. I found myself obsessed with borrowing my son's iTouch. I genuinely looked forward to this long overdue family vacation. Yet, as we walked the well-traveled streets of Washington, DC I couldn't help but keep my eyes open for free Wi-Fi. I was crazed. In hindsight, nothing big happened that couldn't wait for my attention but I had to keep checking just in case of an email emergency. You never know, I could be needed!

Now, back at home I am grateful that my son has removed my email accounts from his "iThing." I have no desire to be continually connected although the ease and lure is overwhelmingly remote. That said, feel free to reach out and touch me. Oops! Text me.

Adventures in a Parking Lot

2010-03-28T13:42:00.000-07:00

Sometimes the world feels very small. Appointments, errands and pickups empty my days. I live decisively between the moments.

Paradise Found

2010-03-21T04:31:00.000-07:00

A few years ago I lost my bearings, creatively. I was new to suburban living and uninspired. For a while, I longed to be a landscape photographer. I thought that if I could just be excited about my surroundings I would always have convenient subject matter. I yearned for something to photograph that was outside my realm.

I felt reduced by the enormity of these marshlands. Willingly lost on its paths, I drowned among the reeds. I deeply inhaled the cold dampness and shivered. Now I realize that you need to make peace with the natural world in order to feel it.

Neat Messy Happy Sad

2010-03-13T11:02:00.000-08:00

I was talking to a friend earlier this week about our own type A tendencies. We were in our children’s first grade classroom observing the kids doing an art project, a still life drawing based on a painting by Cezanne. It’s interesting to see how some kids create very specific renderings with meticulous planning and others are a naturally looser in the marks they make.

It took me years to get away from the heavy outlines of my youth. In high school I painted a cityscape of Venice. I titled it “Venice-rock” because it looked so much like the Flintstones’ Bedrock. I found comfort in having my colors neatly in place on the canvas. Really, at the time I couldn’t do it any other way.

In spite of my need for a certain order, I know that perfection is a flawed concept. Theoretically, if I wanted to line up a group of ducks in a row to photograph, by the time I would click the shutter - - they would be long gone. Turns out that there is no such thing as having your ducks in nice, neat row.

I wonder why we are so quick to categorize ourselves as this or that? I am thankful that through art-making I have found ways to let go of all those heavy outlines and embrace joyful spontaneity. Nothing good happens creatively if I am in my comfort zone.

I may talk a good game about blurring the lines, breaking with routine and trying something new. At the same time I know it would be impossible to step out of the box if I didn’t have a really sturdy one, with clearly defined walls to keep me feeling safe and loved.

Validation

2010-03-05T10:50:00.000-08:00

This image came as no surprise to me. I made it after days of listening exclusively to Lady GaGa on my iPod while visiting my family in Boca Raton. For all I know this purple-haired, plastic fantastic Barbie is actually a Lady Gaga doll, reaching for who knows what - - a Pucci print bathing suit? I think she just wants to be noticed.

We all strive for recognition in our lives. I don’t know anyone who doesn’t. This came up recently when reading True Nature, the blog of Jenny Vorwaller, http://www.jennyvorwaller.com/blog/. She is a multi-talented artist and an insightful writer. In one blog post she discusses the letters she receives from viewers of her blog. On occasion, I have emailed artists and authors who have inspired me. I reached out hoping to find some common ground and to be honest, validation.

The blogosphere makes discovering new artists easy although I always break out in a sweat before I make contact and hit the send button. It’s basically cold calling. I have made some great connections with strangers this way, and had some disappointments, too.

For me, the best part about making photographs is the actual process itself. I get caught up and fall in love in those moments. I am a self-proclaimed infatuation junkie who can find inspiration while looking at the remains of an omelet. I tend to not worry about my audience, where my photographs might eventually be seen or if they will ever formulate a cohesive artistic statement. I photograph because I need to feel these images. Yet, I do blog.

Jenny Vorwaller is spot on when she says that all artists wish for validation. I have come to realize that an integral part of my work is the desire to share it. Sentimental as it may seem, I am compelled to spread the love I feel. But that’s only half the story. I am equally as driven to be noticed.

Yellow/Gray Diptych

2010-02-26T16:37:00.000-08:00

A long winter
visiting offices,
awaiting diagnoses
and staring
at faded posters.

Afternoons
spent sleepwalking
through gray, hazy
skies - - this one

no exception.

Hardened snow
thunder-like,
falls from rooftops
in a cold crush.

Take notice
of fleeting sun
should it choose
to shine (sublimely)
upon you.

3:23 AM

2010-02-18T19:42:00.000-08:00

Sleep, elusive in a pretty bed.

Discarded Things

2010-02-11T15:34:00.000-08:00

What is it about discarded things that gets me? I imagine the life they had before being set out to the curb or piled in a dumpster. Who cuddled and then outgrew their stuffed animal? How many infants were consoled in that cradle? It does seem to me that these jettisoned objects radiate energy and stories - - all of which are mine to envision. I don't see trash, I see things that were once held dear.

These images were made using a Lomo LC-A+ with actual film, which feels old school and so right for me at this moment. Shooting film requires patience. It may take a week to shoot 36 frames and then, I have to wait an entire hour for CVS to develop (and mangle) my film. I tend to forget what I photographed and enjoy visual surprises. This process works well for me. Patience is a dying virtue but I am bringing it back, slowly.

Game Face

2010-02-04T17:49:00.000-08:00

January and February are celebratory months in our home. Both of my boys have birthdays, which I always find bittersweet. Why are the years passing by so fast? It seems like just yesterday I was living every moment of 2001: A Baby Odyssey.

I was fortunate to share in another family's birthday celebration recently. A few weeks ago, I photographed my first Bar Mitzvah. I found the experience to be more personally emotional than I expected. Just at the point when the Bar Mitzvah boy was to be introduced into the main banquet room I became rather choked up. It was a big moment to witness - - watching this young man at the intersection of playful and determined.

Florida Pair

2010-01-25T20:14:00.000-08:00

In December, I visited my parents in Florida. Unlike being at home, it seems that time stops when I am there. Maybe it is due to the limited computer access or lack of routine. The air is heavy. I like how it slows me down and allows me to take notice. Inevitably, we all have to pause - - even if we are not ready to do so.

Stomach Bug

2010-01-21T13:26:00.000-08:00

My son was at home battling a stomach bug yesterday. He was sacked out on the couch, dazed and comfortable in front of the flat screen. I remember secretly loving sick days as a child. Sure I had to visit the doctor, but the trade-off was watching endless television, eating Pine Bros. Cough Drops (which could deliciously cure any ailment) and polishing my nails until they were, in my eyes, perfect.

Once in a Blue Moon

2010-01-14T15:05:00.000-08:00

I made this photograph on January 1, 2010. The night before there was a "Blue Moon" in the sky, something that occurs every 2.5 years or so. This kind of moon is not actually blue, but is the second full moon to occur in a single calendar month. I was sorry to have missed it, perhaps it was the champagne that distracted me. As I was driving on the bleak New Year's Day, I spotted this mylar balloon caught in some branches. How is got there remains a mystery, but I was happy to see it. Kind of like finding my own blue moon right here, tangled up, on earth.

This is the beginning of my work as a solo blogger. My first blogging experience was shared with my dear friend, the very talented writer, Carey Lifschultz. Our blog, Full Constant Light www.fullconstantlight.blogspot.com was a collaborative year-long project; the goal was to inspire one another to create new work through our posts. I think that we both learned a lot along the way. We worked hard, stressed a bit and challenged one another. After a year of working together we have decided to move ahead on our own. Carey is busy finishing up her book, and I am making the images that I need to see and feel. WonderLust will be a place for me to check in with you all and share what I have been up to. Please visit often. You can subscribe to my Google Group and receive new posts by email. And I promise to not bombard your inbox. Really, I am not that prolific! Your ongoing interest in my work means a great deal to me. Thank you for your support and your inspiration.